I feel thankful to be writing here again. During the past several months I experienced a sickness that at times I did not think I would recover from. Often I felt that I was a dying man. I realize that I will die, but I did not feel that I was ready. Not that I am afraid of death and dying; that's not the point. My point is that I feel that I have a few more things to do before I transition.
My naturopathic doctor suspected an infection in my lungs and ordered a 3-day anti-biotic therapy as well as a chest X-ray. This was almost 2 weeks ago. After the 3rd day of the anti-biotic therapy I noticed significant changes physically. I had the chest x-ray and the results showed that I had pneumonia in the right lung. Today I can report that my coughing has nearly completely disappeared. Other symptoms have also disappeared and gratefully my appetite has returned. I am already a slim man, but during my illness I dropped nearly 40 pounds off my already trim body.
Because I feel good I find that I must control myself not to jump full steam ahead into work that I was unable to do around the house for months. As an example, during my illness we had much rain and I am not exaggerating when I say that our lawn must be at least 2 feet high! Hopefully my strength will increase and soon I'll mow the lawn!
The best report, though, is that my prayer life has returned and I feel the presence of love when I now pray. Part of my sickness was that I was feeling disillusioned with prayer and the possibility of continuing to receive the Divine Love. Sad, but this is the truth. But this aspect of my sickness is totally gone. The other day I told a friend that I feel like a dead man returned to physical life. There is a reason that I did not transition at this time. Maybe part of the reason I did not die is that in August I stopped writing the manuscript for a book that I was working on. Hopefully I will soon again write. Interestingly, the title of the book that I stopped working on is "Completing the Journey." When I publish this book I'll announce it here.
For those of you that knew about my sickness, I want to thank each one of you for your prayers. Your prayers meant a great deal to me; because you prayed I am here today. I believe this! Thank you, thank you!!
With much love and appreciation,
Joseph