Prayer Experience
When I began my prayer it was almost immediate; I opened up. I cried, I sobbed; yes, I even raised my voice to a loud noise. It doesn’t need to be this way, and it is not usually. But today it seemed a good thing to do. I poured out my heart-feelings to my Father – God who is our Heavenly Father, and He felt the energies of my heartbeat.
God is not deaf that He cannot hear even our most silent prayer. Nor is He uneasy with the noise we may make or the tears we may shed. He hears the cry of His children, for we are the children of His care, and the objects of His Great Soul Love and most tender care.
We are not wayward children that He waits to scold and punish with a firm rod of chastisement. He is not an angry or vengeful God, ready to devour us in a fire of anger.
God is our Loving Heavenly Father. God is Love, and He loves us individually and is always ready to help us and take us into His waiting arms of love.
I experienced all the above and more when I went to God in prayer. He cleansed my soul. I was changed and am continually being changed by the presence of His Love. His love surrounds me, enveloped me, and is available to enter the depths of my soul – that is, IF I will allow it. God has given us free will, and thus I have the right of refusal. I am free to reject His Love. He never forces His Love upon me or anyone. We are free to walk away and go a direction of our own choosing.
I cried to God with a heavy heart, and a voice whispered to me: “I am here Joseph, I am always here … Forever; I will always be here. You are one of my beloved children. You are the focus of my attention. When you are ready, when you determine the right time, you will find that I am here and already waiting. I am ready, always ready; I am waiting here for you. Speak and I will hear. Come to me; my arms of love are waiting for you. Taste and see that My Love is real and genuine. You are the one to determine if you want to experience my Love. You make the choice. My love for you is waiting.
“Happy are you when you awake to the realization of exactly how close My Love is for you and each and all my children.
“Now, I ask you, Joseph, do you not feel the difference between when you did not pray, and what you are now experiencing since you began to pray? Tell me, speak to me of the change that you feel.”
Father, Heavenly Father, I feel calm. I am happy; I am smiling. I am feeling connected. I feel harmony – harmony with myself and who I am. I feel balanced. And I feel like singing – singing a happy song, a song of healing, release and joy.
I have been through a battle, a battle of my soul, and I have come through to the other side with scars; yet am free of pain and will celebrate the victor’s song.
Now I call to my friends and neighbors: Come all and join with me in a time of feasting and celebration, for I was desperately ill with a disease of self-loathing and feelings of rejection and despair. But I went to my Father – our Heavenly Father, and He heard all my cries and saw my pain; He wiped away my tears with His Great Love. I gave tears and He gave Love – His Divine Love, and now it resides in my soul as abiding grace Divine.
As you are, so I am … all children of God – the objects of His Great Soul Love and care. Come let us be glad and rejoice in the Presence of such Love.
– Joseph